I’ve become just like B in this story. Fking hell. It hurts one thousand times more when you’re the one that does it.
I’m like, the perfectest exemplar of imposter syndrome ever and I knew it. It’s exactly like drowning: you’re suffocating and suffering from knowing you’re suffocating and being unable to do anything about it.
I felt that application was like a treasonous gesture now that I know he really thinks that I can do something great. I am afraid that my performance during the interview might have disappointed him (or at least his protege).
然后他学生是什么感想我也不知道,反正他也带不了博士生其实。昨天面试他学生就插了两句话,想看下我的毕业论文。我的话不就是想变得跟他的protégées一样强才申这些学校的嘛……本校的条件有限,我继续待下去真的希望渺茫。
Unwanted Thoughts Syndrome.
现已从 @ruthlllex04 搬回。